Somewhere on this journey, laying forgotten on a battle scene or behind a pride-monument of something I've achieved...
My wonder disapeared.
I didn't know it was gone, just that life was a shade darker than it used to be. It took some subzero temperatures to shock me into seeing it was gone.
It happened last night as I was talking to God. He mentioned that I didn't have a desire to play in the snow this winter like I used to. Images of sparkling white, of hills flying under my plastic sled, and of red cheeks and noses flashed through my mind. It was true. This year I have stayed inside and shuddered at the thought of donning snow pants to face the cold. This year I wanted to be comfortable. I had my excuses lined up and ready to fire.
Why don't you go for a walk outside?
It's ten degrees! Are you kidding me?
Child, it's ten degrees. Go, see what it's like! Listen to the snow squeak underfoot and taste the raw air.
Go make that phone call.
Umm no. I'm comfy right here on the couch, thankyouverymuch. And remember how I hate talking on the phone?
What about doing hard things? You know you'll be ecstatic once you call her.
Hey. Stop moping around and go do something on your to-do list.
But I'm bored. And I don't feel like doing anything - too much work.
What's that? Isn't action the cure for boredom? Stop idolizing your comfort level and do something worthwhile with your time. Find joy. It's more lasting than comfort, my child.
Well. My life sounds fulfilling.
Last night I decided to find my wonder again. I told God that today I would do something just for the wonder of it, like a little kid.
Once I said yes to God, He didn't leave me struggling to follow through. A single crack of obedience released a flood of wonder-fullness.
It started with the sunrise. Only this morning the sun did not rise. It shot upwards in a stream of wildfire gold. As if directing its light in a single beam toward heaven, the sun was crowned with a light saber of glory. As I watched, a pillar of fire seemed to rise among the barren trees to the east. Wonder hit me full in the face. It was back!
But wonder didn't stick to the sunrise. It tore through the house, following a sunbeam to light up my breakfast bowl of fruit, crystallizing strawberries in glory. Wonder held my breath in my throat.
I found it, guys. Today was brighter, calmer. I smiled for no apparent reasons. I talked to God more. It was a wonderful day.
A wonder-full day.
And you know what? I'm going to chase wonder again tomorrow. Join me, yes? Let's toss comfort aside and run head-long after this wonder.
A wonder-full day.
And you know what? I'm going to chase wonder again tomorrow. Join me, yes? Let's toss comfort aside and run head-long after this wonder.
Like a kid, tearing downhill on a sled - eyes sparkling like the swirling snow.
Let's stop worrying about the cold and find wonder instead.
Let's stop worrying about the cold and find wonder instead.
